Random stuffs.

I'm bored and I got nothing to do and no one to talk to. So I've decided to write really random stuffs about me. Anything that pops out into my brain while I'm writing this, I will jot down here. So here we go.

- I cannot finish a movie straight away. (Unless I'm watching in the cinemas. But that rarely happens because I rarely go to cinemas.) I will probably take a few hours or days to finish just one movie. I don't really know why, but I just can't commit myself to sit for an hour and a half in front of the TV/computer just to watch movies.

- My favorite movie is 500 Days of Summer. That movie literally changed my life. And my music taste. I still have the soundtracks in my Zen until now.

- I think Zooey Deschanel is adorable and should marry Joseph Gordon-Levitt and start making cute babies right away.

- I run from people. Whenever I see people that I know on the streets or at the mall or anywhere, I would try my best to hide, pretend to look away or be busy with my cellphone or pretend to be choosing songs from my music player. But not to close friends. Just people that I know.

- Unless I decided to be nice on that day. Or I really like that person. Yeah, only then I would probably smile at them and maybe even wave and make small talks.

-I like to assume things. Bad things, good things. Sometimes my assumptions turn out to be right. Therefore, I like to think myself as a psychic.

- I would feel really stupid when I smile at people and they don't realize it and don't smile back. Or they do realize it but they just don't smile back because they think I'm weird or something.

- I love the feeling when you smile at old people, and they return it. Sincere smiles. When you smile at them and their faces literally just light up and they smile back at you. I feel as though as I had made their day a bit brighter, thus, making my day brighter too.

- I like to make stupid face expressions to babies and see their reactions.

- I used to have a really big crush on Tom Kaulitz. I still do, a bit.

- I love TLC and AFC. Since my dad cut out MTV and Star World from our subscription, I've become obsessed with those two channels.

- I wish I have friends that like to read as much as I do and we can discuss books that we have read and go to bookstore together and swap books and all.

- I am very loud in real life. With my friends. I have tried so many times, and failed so many times to be a little bit quieter. I just can't. But throw me in a room full of strangers, yes I will be silent and as timid as a mouse.

- I wish I have a penpal. That would be really cool. Do people nowadays still have that? Write letters to each other and send cute stuffs to each other.

- I can't wait for Yuna's Terukir Di Bintang.

- I am most calm when I have my earphones on.

- I think my friends think I'm weird. Or a bit stupid.

- Sometimes I think I have a really strong point/opinion in my head but I can't voice it out because I can't seem to form the sentences.

- I hurt a guy once. Physically. Accidentally. I didn't mean it, I swear. It just happened. And I ran, left him in pain. I still feel guilty every single time I see his face. His family is really nice. I don't know what he told his parents because they never say anything to my face.

- My mind really wanders off. To unimaginable places.

- I am very clumsy and can really embarrass myself in public.

- One time, my friend fell from a bike and broke her arm, I just stood there laughing because I thought she was playing around with me. Then she started to kinda cry and I panicked.

- I used to be really mean back in primary school. Not that I'm really nice now, though.

- I would love to have a cat as a pet. I used to be scared of them but now I think they're okay. But I have asthma. Plus, how do you train them not to poop on you?

- Speaking about cats, my cousin has single-handedly killed (accidentally, of course) few cats while driving.

- I think of what other people might think about me all the time and I would feel really bad about myself.

- I feel like an outsider most of the time. Even with my friends.

- I used to be really, really addicted to Simple Plan back when I was 11/12. I was really infatuated with Pierre.

- I had a cassette from one of their live shows, and that was really big for me at that time, because I was so in love with them. And I would play it every single time I'm in the car. But that lasted for about a week or two because the cassette got stuck in the cassette player in mum's car after that for years. It just refused to get out. I did get it out though, after numerous times of poking my fingers into the player.  But it was damaged really bad. So I stop liking the band.

- I am trying to save money right at the moment. I think I am succeeding as of now.

- I tend to forget things. Really bad. Especially what my mum says.

- I don't think I have best friends because I think the people I call best friends call other people as their best friends.

- Don't you hate it when you're all alone and your head starts to mess around with you and millions of thoughts just come flooding through your mind? And you can't stop them?

- I don't really have a social life. The only people I see nowadays are my parents.

- I prefer to go out with my parents more than with my friends. In that way, if anything bad happens to me, someone will actually know what to do.

- I think I'm really lucky to have two dads.

- I would really, really love to meet the person whose name completes my full name.

- I don't think anyone ever takes me seriously because most of the time the things that come out from my mouth are really irrelevant.

- I would look at people and think, "Does my existence enlighten you in any way? At all?"

- Does my existence enlighten you in any way? At all?

Good night.